Apologies

Yes, I know I probably should not have said it that way but I am tired of these horrid old rich women ganging up on me in this way. It is just horrible. One would think they would be ashamed of their unchristian attitudes but apparently they have no shame, especially Lee. I am tired of being berated and browbeaten over almost nothing. It is so ridiculous that I just don't care anymore. There is no reason to change or alter my earlier opinion of them so there is never going to be any change in this regard. I am just going to sit here and wait until somebody wakes up because there is nothing for me to do. It is all about what they are supposed to be doing. It is not about me. After all, I am not the maid.

Apologies

OK, so maybe Lee will not apologize but she really should because her attitude stinks to high heaven. At least everybody on the planet knows how horribly she has behaved. One would think that she would reflect upon her own hatefulness and recognize the truly rotten nature of her attitude toward myself and my family. There really needs to be some recognition that I have done nothing wrong to them but that on the contrary she is a big problem on this planet which everybody already knew anyway.

Feelings

I remember well how I felt as a child when that hideous woman Lee often snubbed my mother and my sister and I and waved us aside if we were redheaded stepchildren. Excuse me! You are the interlopers. I have no need of imperial witch Lee and her groveling minion-slaves always spreading lies and disinformation. What makes them think they have any hold on me? They have nothing that I want. I would rather die than fawn over that horrid woman. She is not popular here. She and her family might have appeared on television in Venezuela in Spanish but that has nothing to do with me. I am not interested in doing television in Venezuela, a country where many people do not even own televisions anyway and perhaps run around the jungle in birthday suits. It is very hard to evangelize such a difficult country. My distant relatives tried for years and where is the fruit? I have not seen anything but Venezuelan loonies terrorizing behind the scenes. Why should I care about Venezuela? I do feel sorry for those missionaries called to Venezuela, the land of arepas and other boring food, because South Americans are often so full of themselves. I just don't see any connection between myself and them, although they now live in Texas. Texas for me is just a historical museum. I am very interested in doing more historical research but I don't see what that has to do with Venezuela. It is not about them. I really resent these rude people trying to steal my life. It just isn't fair. I made some mistakes but still this is ridiculous.

Apologies

Yes, someday I imagine that hideous woman Lee Bueno will apologize to me personally for foisting upon me her horrid request for volunteer work in the person of her grovelingly stupid volunteer-slave who is obviously Anglo and not Hispanic. It should be self-evident to that imperious witch that no MK of right mind cognizant of how things work would consent to such groveling slavery to their public relations machinery. I am Assemblies of God, not Buenos of God. There is a difference. We are not them. I do not understand how they can so confused on this point. If they want volunteer slaves I think they should ask their own people.

Intercontinental

Yes, I remember some missionary, maybe it was the Davenports or maybe it was someone else, talking about the time they were at the Intercontinental Hotel in San Salvador and some woman walks through the hotel lobby topless. Of course they freaked out. We all heard this story. Who was she? We do not know, just some guest, but we assume that she was probably European. Women over their in Europe are completely immodest and immoral. Why else would they deliberately do that? We never saw that, only heard the story. Sure, we were at the Intercontinental Hotel at other times playing miniature golf in the course they had there but never wearing birthday suits.

Literature Correction

Oops! Yes, "Vanity Fair" was written by Thackeray, not Henry James. I am not very familiar with the writings of Henry James generally speaking, or Thackeray for that matter. So many books, so little time. Generally speaking my reading tastes do not venture far into this type of cynicism. It wearies the mind to read of these contrived situations and artificial and stilted dialogue, words that no one would actually say in conversation and are only thought of in the author's mind, a mind that would not fit in my head without rearranging my brain. I want to think my own thoughts and be a person of my own making, not the creation of some literary creep. So while it is sort of nice to offer your literary services, your services are not acceptable to me. I must decline your inadequate offer because the result would not be acceptable in quality and scope and ultimate aim. You do not know where I am going. I know where I am going and I know who is going with me and it is not you.

Viking Terror

Yes, I really do not appreciate Di Myers badmouthing me all the time and making me look like I was the problem. If the Myers really want to know who made their lives miserable and ran them out of town eventually, they need look no further than the Ophelia Yeary who goes by whatever the people want, the people being her little spies that report to her on everything she imagines that you are doing to make a name for yourself, and also whatever she wants. Ophelia is pastor's wife so basically she is like the "Queen" to the pastor's "King" and if you cross them you are dead in the water. Only they are allowed to have power and be known to the people. Basically it is whatever they want and whatever "their people" want. Mostly "their people" are the black people, some African-Americans but mostly those who immigrated here from the Caribbean islands and are bound and determined to get ahead of white people. So that is how that works. I suppose that it is advantageous for Ophelia to be blond. She almost looks Scandinavian and nowadays you pretty much have to be black or a Viking warrior to get ahead in the Assemblies of God. White Anglos seem to be at a disadvantage nowadays. The tables have turned it seems and now we are at a disadvantage, not that we haven't been at a disadvantage in the past. It