Why do I feel like I have to prove something to you? It is clear to all that you would not hesitate to kill the most perfect and sinless person who ever lived, so obviously I, with my many defects and mistakes, will be an easy prey for your murderous intentions in that I am entirely defenseless. There is no hope that I could ever win this contest to be the best that ever was. I already lost that game at a very young age so it would just be ridiculous to claim otherwise, which I never did. So I just don't even know what your problem is.